Oh Man :)

The horrible part about blogging on a phone is not being able to A.) Spell Check or B.) Veiw anything.

I'm in New Orleans- again. It's a unique experience every time, don't get me wrong. And I do love this City.. :) Anyways, today was generally productive. We went to an Insect Museum. I - the obviuosly more daring one of the group - ate Mealworm Salsa. Which tasted suprisingly like warm spagetti sauce.

(Forgive the unedited camera pictures :))

We're all in the Hotel now. I foresee everyone getting up soon enough.

Report back soon :)

I'm Sorry,

How many more Day's till Bass Starts?

Ouch.

"...hey, sounds like we've got a day planned already. ^^

Anyway, nice answers. We'll definitely get along just fine. But the problem is, you're distracting me when I've got things to do. Tell you what, insert your number here (_____) and we can continue this conversation offline. -To Forist Rose Johnston

July 29 at 1:28pm
Well.. Your just a Sly Devil, aren't you? Sorry, it'll take more than that to impress me though. ;) Maybe you should ask me while you Stand on your Head and type with your Tongue. That might prove you worthy. :) -To Zachary Medeiros

July 29 at 7:00pm
What, is that all it takes to win you over? Carny tricks? I didn't think sword-swallowing hunchbacks with wooden legs were your type. That's all right, I understand. We all have our own colorful hidden fetishes.

Maybe you should branch out, try to meet people who don't smell like cabbage and broken dreams."

Ouch. It's been a Month, but rereading this, it has to be the WORST Rejection comeback I have ever recieved.

P.S. Right after this, I gave him my number :) I'm such a lost cause :p. Apparently it is non working... ?

P.S.S. I worked some extra hours, making way for a new Arabic session 1 from Rossetta Stone. YAY!

Get up, and Get out.

I threw it all away. Trophies, Blankets, Buckets upon buckets of Notes from Amy, Cody, Jeff, ext. I gave away my T.V., most of my Clothing, and deleted every message I’d saved from my Phones inbox. All that is left in my room is a comforter and a pile of Clothes. About 10 Garbage Bags out on the Curve. Some stuff was much harder to give away then others.

I’m Purging. Turned a new Leaf. Starting Over. What ever you decide to call it, I’m there. Completely clear of everything. No more harmful environment, no more hurtful memories, no more holding on. Decided to clear out. This is a new, positive direction I want to go in my Life. A new way to live. No more material chains, no more bad relationships, no more reminders. I feel great. Very.. Rejuvenated. A blank Canvas screaming 'Paint me! Paint me!'. It’s deciding you don’t want to be sad anymore, and Molding your life in the Philosophy of HAPPY.

Psst..


This makes it much easier to get ahead. I dragged my mom into Dorm shopping. Got a new comforter, pillows, storage, laundry hampers, Shampoo, sheets, Lanterns, Towels, hangers, ext. Very Indian (Slash) Moroccan. World Market, for the win. :)

Still in need of a lot more - and this fridge-microwave might take a bit more time, but let’s focus on Today’s Successes. On the bare carpet, I’m writing this. All today’s Bass findings pushed to one side of the room, bed on the Other. I think Simplicity might be the key to life. Things seem to roll better that way. Peace.

P.S.
7 Day's till I move out.

Behind Blue Eyes.

Books Books Books.

Today is Gloomy, both in Weather and Heart. So, I turn to Trusty Books to chase the Sadness away. I think I want to reread David Copperfield. Or maybe my Favorite, the Golden Key. It only takes about an hour or Two to finish, but it always gives me a Surge no other book has ever accomplished. It reflects me. When I was a Librarian for Everitt, they said they had some books withdrawn they were going to throw out. Then they asked if we would like any of them. They were Discarded mainly due to being terrible Torn up and Old. It was one of them. Never heard of the Author, the Publishing Company.. Just Strange. It was written for me though. I know it. It's been a Few years since I’ve read it, it got lost in Moving some time ago.
(<--Cover :) )


P.S. I got my First box packed.

"Two years he walks the earth.
No phone, no pool, no pets, no cigarettes. Ultimate freedom. An extremist. An aesthetic voyager whose home is the road. Escaped from Atlanta. Thou shalt not return, 'cause "the West is the best." And now after two rambling years comes the final and greatest adventure. The climactic battle to kill the false being within and victoriously conclude the spiritual pilgrimage. Ten days and nights of freight trains and hitchhiking bring him to the Great White North. No longer to be poisoned by civilization he flees, and walks alone upon the land to become lost in the wild.
— Alexander Supertramp 'Into the Wild'
May, 1992"

Welcome to Room 226.

It’s hard to Design a Room when you have Four Blank Walls you can’t paint, Big clunky wood Blocks they call furniture you can’t take out, and a way to generous roommate that will let me do anything. :)



Not that I care in the Least bit. This is like my first apartment, in a Completely new place away from Family and Panama City. It’s so overwhelming. I’m Excited, SO excited.. Knowing I’m doing this with the Full support of my Family and Friends makes it feel Strange. I always figured I would leave in the middle of the night, a quick escape if you will. And now, my Family will be helping me pack and driving. It’s… Different.

…And my Roommate. Oh ma Gawd. She’s great. She’s from Zimbabwe, she came to America when her and her brothers were little. Which to me is just EPIC. Anywho, she generally likes the Same things as me, and we’re friends without being ‘Total BFF.. Forever!’. She doesn’t mind the room smelling like cheap Indian Food and Spilt Yoohoo!‘s. We respect each other’s space, and It’s just a great fit all Around. I got Really Lucky :)

I’m happy Alex will be there too. She’s got my Back, and she supports all of my Irrational ideas. And GABBY. What can I say about Gabby? She’s probably the coolest ever. If I ever DO end up being Homesick, I’ll go straight to her. She just Cracks me up and will eat non-stop with me so I don’t feel Fat. Hehe.

Room 226. It sounds so Ominous. So Adventurous. But So, So Right.

Here it is! (See the Big Clunky things? >>) But A huge Glass Wall where You can see the Mississippi Sunrise. Oh Man. The Walk in Closet is on the Oppisit side of the Person taking the Picture. That's where the Dresser's, and full length mirror are (Score.). Bathrooms are down the Hall.

I figured I should put a Picture of what a Mississippi Sunrise looks like. Stefan took it last year from his window. No editing, Fools :)

The Self Happiness Contract.

I don‘t know who I am. And if I don’t know, who else will? That's why all my relationships are coming out crappy and with the wrong people. I jump into relationships because I want to Feel loved. Not always emotionally, but feel WANTED. And it makes me sad. It makes me lonely, and makes me want to cry. I'm single, yes. But I have the attitude that I'm single because I'm not worth anyone's time. And I spend my own time sizing people up for relationships- and what have you. Almost a year I've been sad. And Cynical. And Completely depressed with the fact that I have no one. Because I NEED someone to feel good about myself.



… But that is wrong. I've decided I don't want a Boyfriend, and have a new outlook. But I know this will only last a week. So, I made a List of things I want to do before my next relationship. Things that I want to accomplish on my own, to prove to myself that I can be just as happy just on my own. Not letting any Boy's distract me from my list, and OVERCOMING loneliness head on, rather than just fleeing from it. Or drowning in Self Pitty.

Self Happiness Contract.

Thing's to Accomplish.

.Be For Me.
.Take Diving Lessons
.Learn Arabic
.Continue to discover reason's to Love Myself
.Volunteer
.Experience Self Worth and Power with Independence
.Learn to Drive Stick Shift
.Mail myself Flower's on Valentines Day
(NOT buying a Box of Chocolates and Comfort Eating the Whole night while watching lifetime, Like this year.)
.Try three Completely new things

I made Alex Promise to keep me to it. I'm excited to test my Strength.. I‘m sure it‘ll be hard at First, but in the End? Rewarding in all Aspects of my Life.